love it!

a few things i love right now.

making earrings

painting on t-shirts

babysitting the sweet little guy i'm in charge of

my husband

sleeping under blankets with the windows open

make-up

anything pumpkin

life feels exciting right now. i love this season. i love earning a living without giving up homemaking. i love the sense of teamwork between my husband and me right now.

and yet... i feel like i'm missing something right now. everything is going well, but my mind is not quite right. i'm yelling at the girls a little too often. i'm watching a little too much TV. i'm a little too selfish.

when times are good, i need to pull closer to God; instead i'm trying to go under my own power, which is not enough even when things are easy.

i am determined to stop this backward slide. things are good because of God. He deserves the glory for this peaceful time in our lives.

Psalm 19:1-4 & 14

The heavens declare the glory of God;
the skies proclaim the work of his hands.
Day after day they pour forth speech;
night after night they display knowledge.
There is no speech or language
where their voice is not heard.^[a]
Their voice^[b] goes out into all the earth,
their words to the ends of the world...

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

moving on

i'm in such a weird place right now. my mind is split in two directions: future and present.

we have decided to move north to a different city. we know it will take 18-24 months before we can do it, but our minds are made up.

i started a new job this summer, and i will be working my behind off to earn enough for the move (& our 10th anniversary trip & my 30th birthday).

we have lined up a buyer for our house, but it has to wait until our contract for the first-time homebuyer credit us up (15 months from now.)

BUT...

the friends i have here are some of the best (if not THE best) i've had in my life.

i love these friends; i'm not looking forward to trying to make new ones. i love this life i have here. i'm very happy. so i'm mentally living in both places.

we are nomadic by nature. this is the absolute longest we have lived anywhere, and i'm ready for a change. ready to start over. ready to leave my family drama behind and live closer to my husband's family. ready for my kids to live close to the wild our God created, and be a little wilder ourselves.

the plan is that when we get there my husband and i both work at jobs in the education field. that way we work during the school year when the weather is bad, and play with our kids when the weather is great. we plan to spend more time with my husband's parents and have reliable care for the girls when we want to have time together.

in the meantime i am trying to earn an income and live-it-up for the next year and a half until we can arrange to move.

the one thing i do not want to do is disconnect from this group of friends before we move (or ever, for that matter).

so, here's to the next move.